QUIT PRAYING

It’s time to stop praying and start acting. -by 

Mark Batterson from Draw Circle
Stop praying and start acting

“Well done, good and faithful servant!” — Matthew 25:23

One of the defining moments in my prayer life happened a decade ago. I was in a small group with a friend who worked for InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at Georgetown University. Jeremy was working on a shoestring budget, and their campus ministry needed a computer. He shared the request at the end of our meeting, and I agreed to pray for it, but when I started praying for it, I felt that the Lord wanted me to stop praying. It was like the Holy Spirit said, “Why are you asking Me? You’re the one with the extra computer!” I quit praying in mid-sentence. I told Jeremy we didn’t need to pray about it because I had an extra computer he could have.

I wonder how many of our prayer requests are within our own power to answer? Yet we ask God to do what we can do ourselves. And then we wonder why God doesn’t respond. Maybe it’s because God won’t do for us what we can do for ourselves. God isn’t honored by prayers that are within the realm of human possibility; God is honored when we ask Him to do what is humanly impossible. That way, God gets all the glory!

There are some things we don’t need to pray about:

We don’t need to pray about loving our neighbors.
We don’t need to pray about giving generously or serving sacrificially.
We don’t need to pray about blessing someone when it is in our power to do so.
We don’t have to pray about turning the other cheek or going the extra mile.
God has already spoken on those subjects.
There comes a moment when praying becomes a form of spiritual procrastination. It’s time to stop praying and start acting.

Quit praying about the program and fill out an application. Quit praying for the friend you hurt and make a phone call. Don’t just complain to God about your coworker; circle them in prayer. Don’t just pray for missionaries; write a check.

One of my heroes is Peter Marshall, the former chaplain of the United States Senate. His prayers at the opening of Senate sessions are timeless. Peter Marshall believed in an action-oriented approach to Scripture.

I wonder what would happen if we all agreed to read one of the Gospels, until we came to a place that told us to do something, then went out to do it, and only after we had done it… began reading again?…

There are aspects of the Gospel that are puzzling and difficult to understand. But our problems are not centered around the things we don’t understand, but rather in the things we do understand, the things we could not possibly misunderstand. This, after all, is but an illustration of the fact that our problem is not so much that we don’t know what we should do.

We know perfectly well… but we don’t want to do it.

Please don’t misinterpret what I’m saying. Pray about everything. Then pray some more. But at some point, we have to quit praying and start acting.

One of the great mistakes we make is asking God to do for us what God wants us to do for Him. We confuse roles. For example, we try to convict those around us of sin. But that is the Holy Spirit’s responsibility, not ours. In the same sense, God won’t do for us what we can do ourselves. And many of us get stuck spiritually right there.

We are called to pray about everything, but there comes a time when praying can be a form of disobedience, laziness, or negligence. We can’t just pray like it depends on God; we also must work like it depends on us.

When Christianity turns into a noun, it becomes a turnoff. Christianity was always intended to be a verb — more specifically, an action verb. The title of the book of Acts says it all, doesn’t it? It’s not the book of Ideas or Words. It’s the book of Acts. And if we said less and did more, I believe we would have the same kind of impact the first-century church had. And while we’re on the subject, we should be more known for what we’re for than what we’re against.

When everything is said and done, God won’t say, “Well said, good and faithful servant.” He won’t say, “Well thought,” “well planned,” or even “well prayed.” There is only one commendation He will give: “Well done, good and faithful servant.”

Excerpted with permission from Draw the Circle by Mark Batterson
 

Your Turn

What thing popped immediately into your head when you understood what Mark meant by “Quit Praying”? Is there something you should be doing? Come share with us on our blog. We want to here from you…

Dry Seasons

I love “The Flash”…..😂

I know that’s weird, but if you watch the Tv series you would understand this.

You know those enchanting times when Berry Allen (sshh😷 don’t tell anyone, that’s the Flash’s alias😉) zooms through the city saving people and doing those other many fascinating things. Then those times when his friends are doing all the experiments and creating things while he just stands and watches them, (ok not stand), more of pacing as fast as you can follow….(continued in the last paragraph 😁)….

There are times in your life that everything just stops moving, not just that you are immobile but everything happening around you just stops happening and you don’t understand why but it feels like God has forgotten about you. 

At this point you may say or think..”I know God never forgets about me”, lol, I’m glad you know that but do you truly believe that? Do you act like you believe it?
When all your friends are getting married, or graduating, or starting businesses (even being a baby mama is now an achievement for most), and you look at yourself and nothing seems to be happening for you, do you still know deep down that God isn’t just watching you, He is actively working in your life? 

Yes yes yes

Someone is saying or thinking right now, most of my mates are also dead, sick, invalid, unemployed, uneducated and I’m alive and well….. I am also so glad you are thinking of that but that doesn’t matter to the person who is frustrated, or angry or sad, depressed.

 No no no…

You know what they want to hear?

Their turn is coming, they are about to move, something great is going to happen to them soon…

That is also very very true and I want you to dwell seriously on that….

But…. 

I also want you to thank God for this dry season, enjoy this season, be glad for this season…why you may ask? 

Because for there to be a rainy season, there has to be a dry season; for there to be light, darkness has exist; everything happens because something else first happened. 

You cannot be truly grateful for what you have never not had…

God allows us to experience this dry seasons because it can be a time of preparation, a time to go through tests, temptations. It can be a time to learn how to trust God, to trust His timing and to rely on Him even when you don’t feel His presence. A lot of things can happen during this season if you would just allow God. 

Don’t forget that God is never inactive in your life. Even when it looks like nothing is happening, that is when things are happening the most, that’s when battles are being fought for your life, that’s when He is setting things in place, that’s when He is preparing a table before your enemies…

….While it may look like nothing is being done because he isn’t running around and doing his “saving”, that’s when all the work is being done, what he then does at the end is to just deliver the blow to the bad guys…..(yeah, I’m that kind of girl) 😉

Beyond Time

“God exists out of space and time continuum”

Let’s look at an example 💭 

“If you were to go back in time, like let’s say 1876, then you got stranded and needed help, as a Christian your first action is to pray right? The question most people would ask “which God am I praying to?””
Which brings up the thought of a past, present and future God, right? So that means the past God doesn’t know of the God of the future yet…😞

That is His future self…💭💭

Then can the God of the past which you travelled to help you to travel to the Future? 😲

I’m stuck like literally, my mind cannot move on from there…😶

But does that not limit our God? Umm…NO😏

Can God be limited?? 💭

NO…?? *duhh😏

Which then brings us to the actual point which is that God exists out of time and space…

What is my point??…you just asked that right? 😏 

Well my point is that He has already done what you have asked of Him, God already knows what you need even before you need it, He has provided for all your needs even before you have them! 

Which is why the bible says that God knows the end from the beginning…

It then brings up the question of Freewill…

That is, if He knows the end from the beginning, does that not mean that He knows how we will end? How does that not affect our free will? 

💭 Well just cos I have looked into the future and seen that I will have an A, does that mean that the future controls my present? Do I stop reading? Do I stop preparing for my exams? If I were to stop preparing cos I know I would have an A, wouldn’t that change the future?? Lol, which means that I still have control over what I’m doing right? Over what grade I will have cos it doesn’t depend on the end, it depends on what I’m doing in the present..

It’s not your end you should be worried about, it’s not your death that should scare you. Jesus already conquered death, He won that fight, like it’s really redundant and a waste of time to be scared of dying, it’s like fighting a dead soldier….stupid right??? 

It’s your life that should scare you, how well are you living it? What are you doing now? How is that adding to your value as a christian first, as a part of your family, as a friend and as a member of your community??

There’s a lot to think about here but I want you to never forget that we serve an awesome and super cool God…like “Super God” ☺️☺️

“And now, dear brothers and sisters, let me say one more thing as I close this letter. Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”Philippians 4:8

Consistency in the Character of God

“Because you are equating showing unconditional love with doing whatever you want to do and getting away with it! That only shows God as unprincipled and undisciplined. If God were to take away your free will and choice would that really qualify as you loving him? Wouldn’t you have called Him a dictator and a tyrant? God loves us unconditionally, your inability to understand it does not make His love less unconditional or conditional. Because if He didn’t love us unconditionally, you would have been stoned to death just cos of this statement, because our every action would have been counted, and because no amount of doing good would have been enough to build the bridge between God and man! You don’t go to heaven because you are sinless or because since you gave your life to Jesus Christ, you have not committed any sin, you go to heaven simply because you believe that God sent His son to die for each and every one of us and that there is forgiveness and grace in the blood of the lamb!! John 3:18 did not add any clause, it simply said that we are not judged because we believe; it is only when we don’t believe that we are judged. 

And yes there is a heaven and a hell! If God is going to love even the person that kills another here on earth, because He does. Just because you don’t believe in God that doesn’t mean He wouldn’t love you, it’s just not possible, He created you so He loves you even when you don’t believe in Him or the saving grace of His son! But because only a principled God can show unconditional love, you have to pay for all your sins since you didn’t believe in Jesus so He could pay the price for you with His death. Either Jesus pays the price for your sins or you do…,someone has gotta pay for it!!”

That was my reply to a post I saw on Facebook which said that God doesn’t show us unconditional love. At first I was irritated because of the outright support that people showed for the post and also because of the feeble attempts made by the christians who commented in showing that God actually did love us unconditionally. 

However as I typed that response, I had calmed down by then and the truth actually began to dawn on me. It was sad really, because these people were not experiencing the unconditional love of God. The thing is that you cannot enjoy or benefit from the good news of the cross without first understanding the bad news of the cross! 
I’m sure you are wondering, “what is she talking about? The bad news? There’s nothing bad about the cross”

But you see there is and I will explain it you. 

The bad news of the cross is that you and I sent Jesus Christ to the cross; our sins made it a matter of necessity, a life and death issue that something had to be done about our sins. 

You see, the thing is that when God created us, it was so that at the end of the day, at the end of our lives we could return home to heaven after doing what we were created to do but something went terribly wrong. Sin came into the world and we became tainted, we couldn’t enter into heaven without having to be cleansed of all our sins. God still loved us so much, He searched desperately for a way to bring us home. He knew what had to be done, but could He really do it?? 

If you look at the Old Testament you would see that God had a well known and established character. He did what He said He would do and He didn’t go back on it no matter what we as humans did and oh we did a lot and out of a 100%, 99.5 of our actions were sins. Inspite of all of these, He still kept His promises. 

Are you now seeing the consistency of His character??

Then entered Jesus…He went to His father and said “we all know what needs to be done for your creation to come home, it needs to be done and someone needs to do it, let me do it, let my innocence be given in exchange for their guilt, let my purity be given in exchange for their impurity so that even when you are so angry with them, when you think of me, you would forgive, when you think of my sacrifices, you would let it go”

God looked at His son, knowing Him fully well, knowing that the decision didn’t come lightly, that Jesus had also stood with Him and watched as mankind sinned for thousands of years and that He understood the magnitude of what He was going to do! So He didn’t try to convince Him out of it, He didn’t try to change His mind, He said okay. 

In order that it might be possible, Jesus had to be born into the world just like we all did! He had to be like us so that it would all make sense, so that it will not be said that because He was in His heavenly form, He didn’t feel pain, that He had somehow found a way to not feel the pain. He had to be able to take on all our sins and He couldn’t do that without first being like us. 

He came into the world and took all our sins upon Himself and He suffered for us, He died in our places. God had to watch as His only son was sacrificed as an animal and for what? For a people who may not even accept it? He couldn’t so He turned away, He looked away, He couldn’t watch His son suffer and at the same time He couldn’t save Him! Are you seeing this? Are you feeling His pain? There is a difference between seeing your loved one suffer and not being able to help them because you don’t have the power to but when you can actually do something about it but choose not to? Now it had to be because of some really important thing right? 

You also have to understand that God had to respect Jesus’s decision to save us, to die for us so that for the first time and for the last time after that, God looked away. He turned His back on His son so that He would never turn His back on us, so that forever and ever, no matter what we did, no matter our sin, God would never ever turn His back on us!! 

Praise God somebody!! 👯👯

So now you see, that without first understanding that bad news of the cross, you cannot fully enjoy the benefits of His unconditional love. 

People often ask why there is a hell if God loves us unconditionally. I think it’s a common misunderstanding, people thinking that because God loves us, we don’t have to pay for not believing.

So let me understand this, God ( 👆🏽👆🏽), sent His son to die for us and even after all of that, you don’t still believe in Him?? Yet, He loves you unconditionally, He blesses us and still looks out for us. He expects you to willingly follow Him, because there’s nothing as sweet as loving and following someone without being forced to. 

•  So Jesus paid the price for our sins..
• He took it all and died..
• Which means someone had to pay..
• Now you don’t believe in Him..
• Even after all that..
• And you don’t want to pay..
• You say there shouldn’t be hell..
• But is it fair??..😐

Really though….is it right? That after God had to endure all of that, and you don’t see it as anything, you should be allowed in? Unless you accept His saving grace, which makes you pure you cannot enter heaven. 

We NEED God to be consistent in His character, we NEED God to keep being God. Don’t ask Him to change His mind, this is who God has been since the beginning of time, God being God allows us to enjoy the benefits of the cross. Because if I understand you correctly, you are asking God to forget everything His son went through 👀👀, because if that is it?

 then we are FINISHED, like COMPLETELY FINISHED. 

….because “Chutzpah” is a word

“Agrippa interrupted him. “Do you think you can persuade me to become a Christian so quickly?” Paul replied, “Whether quickly or not, I pray to God that both you and everyone here in this audience might become the same as I am, except for these chains.””
‭‭Acts of the Apostles‬ ‭26:28-29‬ ‭NLT‬‬ 

😨😂 NO HE DIDN’T

…but he did! He just preached while on trial, lol, he tried converting his judge 👏🏽👏🏽, the very man that would decide his fate. I’m sure he went like “well, if you are going to decide my fate, at least be a christian” 😂😂

This is just another level of evangelism. Paul took the preaching of the gospel to a whole new level. Instead of defending himself, he preached, like he wasn’t even about that life, Like no time to waste, he killed two birds with one stone. He saw an opportunity and he took it, he didn’t waste a soul, he didn’t get all petty and say “since they are judging me wrongly, let them go to hell”

Has that sunk in? 

Not yet?? Ok

This is what Paul did. Instead of getting scared of what may happen to him, he focused on God. I’m sure he was afraid but he must have thought “the one thing I’m confident in is the sharing of the word, why don’t I just do that?” Is that your way of thinking? No? 😂 I thought so too…

Well thank God for God ( 😆😆)

For teaching us more about Himself, for seeking our welfare more than even ourselves! 

Just imagine the fear, the apprehension? Oh he must have trusted in God to see him through but don’t forget that he also knew that there was going to come a time when he would die. It may have come across his mind…like ” is that time going to be now??, have I finished everything God asked me to do?”. That may have caused him to panic and in an effort to do the right thing he preached…

Is your fear pushing you towards fulfilling God’s purpose for your life or away from it?? 

Well, lucky us right? 

We still have time to rethink and repray, so get going! No time to waste, no soul to waste. Don’t be worried about defending yourself to the world; 

just do God and let God do you ( 😅)

P.S : this is my month of thanksgiving! I don’t really understand why though but I have been feeling particularly thankful this past week! Not that I am not grateful for what God has done for me or that I’m not seeing it but this is a whole new level of gratitude for me. It goes beyond just thanking God for all He has done for me but just thanking God. Like it’s that simple! 

It’s about thanking God just because I can thank Him, because I can feel the need and desire to thank Him, because I can feel His goodness and being able to express it as gratitude! So I encourage you to join me as I do this! Let’s simply thank God; no clauses attached. Just a simple:

“Thank you God”

Almost forgot...

“Chutzpah” means : “personal confidence or courage that allows someone to do or say things that may seem shocking to others”

Makes sense now right??

Falling in love…

You go on Instagram and all you see is relationship goals here and there and people showing each other so much love ( or at least their pictures and captions say they do) and I begin to ask my self if I’ll ever be capable of such love, if I would ever be capable of loving another person so unconditionally, so consistently, so fully and so unrelenting! If I would ever be able to forgive them of all their wrongs and misgivings, ever look at their flaws and accept it all; a person I do not share blood with, a person I may never have known all my life…..fear creeps in, and I begin to wonder how possible marriage will be for me….
But then I’m reminded of just how much I’m able to love God, how much I hold on, how much I persevere and struggle to live the kind of life that will please Him. Even when I don’t get what I have been praying for, I get angry and I question Him ( yes, contrary to popular belief you can actually ask God why), when I get pissed at Him for not giving me what I asked for and we go through that cycle of disappointment, acceptance and finally gratitude. Those times when I don’t feel like praying, or going to church, or preaching; those times I Intentionally ignore the convictions of the Holy Spirit and those times I just want to hate everyone around me!!! 

But then I remember my journey and my relationship with God, how I went from not knowing Him, to falling completely and hopefully in love with Him, I am comforted with that. With just knowing that at the right time, I will fall completely and unconditionally in love with the person that God is preparing for me. Just knowing that God knows me fully, He knows my past, my present and my future, He knows all the changes I will go through and the person best suited to be with me. He knows that however I change, my change will complement the change that my future spouse would have also gone through and that our flaws, our good parts; our mysteries, our problems, challenges and every other thing in life will complement each other. 

Prayer: Dear God, let me always be alarmed at the magnitude of your love for me, remind me constantly of all that you have done for me and all that you have promised to do for me…

“Even when God says “no”, it is coated with so much love and goodness” (realtalkkim)

My gift to God….

” For your glory Lord, I will do anything” 

Did that touch you the same way it did me?

Did you just say “yes, Lord”? ( guilty 🙋🏽) you are rethinking it now aren’t you? 

Well then that’s great! Because that statement means so much! It’s a commitment to do whatever you can and ought to do to bring glory to God. 

It’s a willingness to die and be raised with Christ. To die to yourself, to do what He says even when you don’t want to, even when it isn’t the coolest thing to do, when it’s just not “your thing”… 

This is a point of conviction for me! Why? Because I will easily say it, because I will shout it out if I have to, say it to everyone I meet, but when it comes down to so much as reposting a message, I have to think twice about it. If the content is not on fire, if it wouldn’t blow my followers away, umm, no thank you 🚶🏽🚶🏽. “Let me go and look for a Holy Ghost word that will make everyone jump, if not bye bye sista” 

We all want to get to that point where we have been blessed because we came but no one wants to go through the journey of dying to our selves, to our innate human nature, to our selfish desires, to our worldly needs, no one wants to have a personal retreat just to spend time with God (that was your idea 😏) or even drop our phones for a week to allow us concentrate in the presence of God! Of course not, the world will not survive if we were to go offline seeing as we are the rock on which the world stands. 💪🏾

It’s important that we know that as Christians we should be willing to do anything for the glory of God. As Christians we should seek to have a heart that only desires the things of God, we should pray for God to mend our broken hearts and for our lives to be transformed and conformed to the things of God and not to the things of this world. 

It is not only about reposting or forwarding whatsapp messages. (especially the ones with the “forward it or you die” clauses). What is that thing that God has been asking you to do for so long, that you have been procrastinating? You know why you haven’t done it and it’s not because you don’t have the time to. 

A lot of us are waiting for a large congregation to preach to before we open our mouths to share the gospel 🙇🏾, a lot of us are waiting for an angel to appear before we acknowledge that tug in our hearts to win souls for Christ. For others, it’s a process, there are different stages of growth and you may not be there yet. Just wait, trust in God and when you get there, charge in and break records. 

The world is waiting for us.

It is our time to be the heroes of our faith. 

Oh and you should listen to “For your glory Lord” by Tasha Cobbs 

It’s amazing!! 

My Identity….

I want to change the world…
Phew! 😅😅
I have finally said that out loud, it’s no longer all in my head, I’m no longer scared of saying such great things, no longer scared of failing or not being good enough, not achieving what I want to achieve.

No longer scared of what people will say, will they laugh at me? The fear of sounding or looking stupid when I say it…

I want to be the “Jack of all Trades and Master of all” 😂 I want to be a lawyer, an accountant, an arbitrator, a caterer, an event manager, a mother, a wife, a philanthropist, a counsellor, a pastor, an educationist, a psychologist, an achiever of great things..

I want my name plastered everywhere in the world – scratch that, I want God’s name plastered everywhere and just below it, at the edge will be my name! 

I want to do all I can do, to achieve all I can achieve, to accomplish as much as I can and do all what God has purposed for me to do. 

I want my foundation and my identity to be rooted in Christ, so that when you hear my name in a discussion, it will be because the topic was “God”. I want it to be said of me that “there lived a woman who walked and lived in God’s purpose for her life”

There is nothing quite like being identified with and in Christ, nothing like finding out and getting to know God’s purpose for your life; because you see, the bible has been telling us for so long how much God loves us and His great plans towards us and how great and wonderful our lives are meant to be. You can then imagine what sort of plans God will have for us, for those who are being identified with Him. 

Being identified with God means that His identity and reputation is put at stake too. Who God is, is on THE LINE!! It’s not just about you anymore, it’s not just about what you want to do, or that the sky is your limit. 

Your blessings and prosperity now go in line with His glory. Your success in no longer based on a probability; it is automatically guaranteed. 

Should people see you and wonder what happened to God? Will He stand by and watch His name be soiled and put to shame? 

Don’t you think that for all the glory to be given to God, you have to be blessed and not just blessed; “abundantly and above all you could ever ask for” ( or dream of)(emphasis is mine). 

God has made us what we are, and in our union with Christ Jesus he has created us for a life of good deeds, which he has already prepared for us to do. (‭Ephesians‬ ‭2‬:‭10‬ GNB)

So my friends, I believe and know that because I am being identified in Christ….

“I can (and will) do all things through Him (Christ) who strengthens me”

Unconditional Faith

 As I read through the book of Daniel, I see so many things like love, fellowship, faith, understanding, wisdom, revelations, encounters but the one thing which stands out the most is this: unconditional faith! You can see it not only in the life of Daniel but also in the lives of Shadrach , Meshach and Abednego. 
These men trusted God completely, and their faith in God was totally unconditional, it wasn’t just dependent on what they could get, or what they had seen God previously do for them. If you look back at their lives, you would see that they had lost their homes, their loved ones, their families and had been taken as prisoners of war. 

Daniel 3:15-17 (GNB)

They didn’t just believe in God because of what He could do for them, their faith went beyond what God could and would eventually do for them. They boldly said that if God would not save them from the fiery furnace then they would gladly die rather than bowdown to a gold statute. 

That there is standing for what you believe in!!

Daniel 6:11-22 (GNB)

If you then read further and look at Daniel. He was asked not to pray to God for 30 days and instead to pray to king Darius, he didn’t give it so much of an afterthought, he didn’t even wince or frown or consider the options. He just went home and prayed. 

The morning after he was caught and thrown into the lions den for a night, when the king asked him if he was alright, he said that his God had rescued him.
What I see here is a desperation for God, it’s a dying need to serve and follow God. Their options were to either serve God and if they weren’t going to then they would rather die. Life was not worth living without God. 

They didn’t ask God to save them from the fiery furnace or the lions den, no they didn’t! All they did was hold on to their faith. It was their need for God that saved them, their unconditional faith in God. 

We see that through out the book of Daniel that God never let them down, because at the end of it all, the glory went back to Him. 

Our faith in God is what moves God to do what is needed to be done even without us asking. It’s when we tell God that come what may, we would serve Him, that no matter what happens we will follow Him; it is that trust in Him that makes Him look to us and do all we need without asking. 
So today I pray, that my faith in God; that our faith in God, will move nations to seek Him and to serve Him; that our faith in God will take us to places we have never dreamed of.

I pray that we unconditionally love, trust and have faith in God and that in all we do, the glory of God will be seen. 

His thoughts concerning you….

 So I have been going a rough patch these past few weeks, it hasn’t been easy spiritually, not in any other aspect of my life though and I have been struggling and trying. I couldn’t even pick up my bible to study, couldn’t even pray, didn’t want to go to church and I didn’t understand why. It was a sudden change and I just didn’t know what to do! I would lie down and watch movies all day, keep eating, sleeping or just driving round and it was not enjoyable cos I would also be worried about not being able to have a quiet time with God.

I had successfully reasoned out and justified the benefits of praying and having a quiet time but I still couldn’t bring myself to do it! I sat and I wondered why? I was surprised and not surprised at the same time because I knew it was an attack from the enemy! He couldn’t just sit back and watch me have such a good time in the presence of God, something he could clearly not do….
I would be watching a movie and I would just pause and just tell God to help me, I told Him I knew Jesus was constantly interceding for me and I was grateful for that, eternally grateful, but I also needed to be able to sit down with Him and have a conversation! 
Then one morning I woke up, I picked up my phone, checked Instagram and whatsapp, stood up to just walk around, all the while struggling to pick up my bible and read. It was so difficult and I had this war going on in me that I did not know a way out, but then I picked up my phone, opened my bible app and I read it! Just like that! I did not know how it happened but it just did! 
A few days later a friend came by and we got talking and I had to use what I had studied that day to help her out! 
It was then I realized that the enemy was just playing games, no matter what I was going through or no matter what you are going through, when there is a need, when the time comes, God will come through! 

It did not matter that I was having these struggles or that the enemy thought he could use me as a soccer field, all that mattered was that it was time for me to sit up and do what He needed me to do and when that time came He came through and helped me out of that!  
I don’t know what you may be going through right now but I know that when the time for your breakthrough is at hand, God will pull you out of that mess, that prayer will be answered. For now we just have to wait on God, we just have to trust that His timing is perfect and that He would not be a minute early or late. He will be right on time!!